I'm more confused now about who God is than when I was initially liberated from Egypt. Why!?

God already knows you. You are one of God's children. Forget about religious dogma for the time being and actively try to live as God would have you live. Just about every single religion says that the essence of God is love, so the more love (not ual lust) that you show to others, the more love that you readily accept from others, the closer you will be to God. Meditate and pray that you will do God's will. You will then know more about God.